Bright Lanterns

“I am out with lanterns, looking for myself.”

-Emily Dickinson

“All I’ve Ever Known”

I heard this song a long time ago from the hit Broadway musical, Hadestown, and completely fell in love with it. The irony, right? Not only did the harmonies from the original cast of Reeve Carney and Eva Noblezada collide perfectly, but the lyrics to this song are absolutely beautiful. I was alone so longI…

December 14, 2024
You’re Gonna Miss Me One Day

I have a habit of getting on facebook everyday. And facebook has this terrible feature of showing “memories” of things posted on this day in the years prior. I’ve been getting a lot of your memories lately. Like our trip to Cbus for the Lush outlet and Disney store, going to Pittsburg for the only…

September 6, 2024
Romantic Hopeless

I’m not a hopeless romantic, but rather a romantic hopeless. I like the idea of love and companionship, but pretty cynical in actuality. I’ve been reading a lot of poetry by Celia Martinez (highly recommend her poetry book Diary of a Romantica) and I love her work. She is a hopeless romantic, but also understands…

August 17, 2024
You Make My Heart Happy

That is as simply as I can put it. I love being around you and I love you. I envy you, it’s like you’ve always known who you are and you’re comfortable with your identity. I wish I’ve known who I was and sometimes I still don’t know. But, all I do know is that…

August 3, 2024
“Bonding Over Instability”

I said this phrase today and I kind of like it. I feel like it’s loaded with meaning. The root word of “bond” is defined as a relationship between people or groups based on shared feelings, interests, or experiences (according to google). While the ladder word of “instability” is used to describe unpredictable behavior or…

May 29, 2024
Tuesday

I know it shouldn’t affect me, but I think it did more than I would like to admit. It has me questioning if I’m competent enough for my job. Am I in the right field? Do I belong here? Am I too weak to do my job adequately? I would like to think not, but…

March 30, 2024
Therapy

I have a love/hate relationship with therapy. Mostly, because all of the therapists that I’ve actually connected with have left. I don’t do well when people leave. Why open up to someone when they’re just going to leave? I know that’s fear of abandonment talking, but it feels like a valid point in my head.…

March 10, 2024
So I Remember…

At the 66th annual Grammy Awards, Tracy Chapman and Luke Combs performed a duet of Chapman’s classic song “Fast Car,” and in my opinion, it was one of the best Grammy performances I’ve ever seen. I am a big fan of the song, the message behind the lyrics, and the dynamic simplicity of the iconic…

March 4, 2024
Ace of Hearts (in Hell)

In conjunction with my previous blog, “Hazbin Hotel: A Beautiful Illustration of Redemption in an Otherwise Raunchy Adult Comedy,” I wanted to write another installment. Not necessarily a part two, but rather a spinoff. This one is about the relationship between Charlie and Vaggie. I don’t really pay much attention to fictional relationships, but this…

February 12, 2024
Hazbin Hotel: A Beautiful Illustration of Redemption in an Otherwise Raunchy Adult Comedy

I don’t watch too many adult animated shows, mostly because I find their storylines tend to prioritize profanity and sexual innuendos over a genuine plot. I can’t be too critical because obviously those shows have a lot of advantages to using animation for comedic purposes than live action and I won’t deny that most of…

February 6, 2024